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Clarity

I will always come back;  I will always dive deep, sometimes I am cut short, I find that the depth wasn't there and yes, it hurts but I always regain the shore. A little weathered, a new scar, maybe an extra ache when the wind blows the right way yet I will stand on the shore and dance. I refuse to allow anything to cut short my experience in this life, I know no other way to be than wild and free. I laugh as hard as I cry and love as much as I can. I will be me no matter the storms that roll through, I am strong and I am still here.

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