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Foundation of Truth

The days of hiding my words deep inside are past, I will not deny my truth to make anyone else feel comfortable. I refuse to conceal the foundation of who I am to ease anyone else's discomfort and inability to handle the messier aspects of life and relationships.

I will not budge from what I know to be true for me. To do otherwise would be the greatest crime of all, a lie so magnificent it erases all that you are. No, not for love, not for shame, not for fear, pride or envy will I sacrifice this truth inside me. I refuse to deny countless hours of painstaking labor, agony and pure force of will, born from a desire to be more than what I was.

I will gaze at the raw edifice of my soul and revel in its primal beauty, bask in its light with awe and wonder. This is not a structure of grace and dignity rather a testament to grit, determination, the absolute refusal to lay down and die.

I will stand before this monument of self, honor the price that was paid to build her and solemnly vow to guard her with my very last breath; for she is me and I am her, together we will not fall.

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