Ní thuigeann an sách an seang.

I am starting down a path, that for the first time I can actually see years ahead and know deep in my bones, I will see the end of. There will be pain and growth, laughter and sorrow, loss and and discovery, I will be challenged, encouraged, supported, mocked, envied, healed and strengthened to become the woman I have longed to be. That voice inside who never let me quit, always pushing me towards a goal I wasn't even aware existed, this sense of incompleteness, scratching at the back of my soul and setting my teeth on edge; she knew what wasn't right, what didn't fit and never let me settle in mediocrity, forever questioning every little piece of the puzzle that wasn't quite me. I am beyond grateful for that voice inside who never let me give up on myself, who would not be silenced or deterred in the quest to connect me with my destiny. I am on that road, having found the other pieces that connect me to myself and I will not be stopped.

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